One Year Ago Today

I've learned that as strong and positive as I try to be, some days I'm still just going to feel broken... For the past month or so, I've felt a dark cloud approaching. I know that I should be elated that Reid has done SO well, and I truly am thankful for that, but I'm just not looking forward to his first birthday. I'm scared because I don't think I'll be 100% happy like I should be. It's back to the roller coaster of emotions for me...facing the one year 'anniversary' of the life of Reid and death of Jameson terrifies me. I can't tell you how many nights I've laid in bed thinking about my three children. I can't help but play the 'what if' game and I wonder if it will always be so. Bottom line is that I love my children with all of my heart. Reid and Cameryn feel that love each and every day. I think in a different way, Jameson feels that love too. *************************************** One year ago today, I was five months pregnant. One year ago today, I was given news that terrified me. One year ago today, my world started crumbling. One year ago today, I began a 22 day bed rest regimen. One year ago today, I looked into the eye's of loved ones and saw fear. One year ago today, I cried for hours - I've only cried harder once. One year ago today, my priorities shifted and the small inconsequential things stopped mattering. One year ago today, I still had a ray of hope for the possibility of Jameson's life. One year ago today, I began a LONG journey that has made me a stronger person inside and out. I sure have come a long way from where I was....one year ago today.

The Next Soccer Star!

We signed Cameryn up for an instructional soccer camp a few weeks ago. Yesterday was the first session and Cameryn was SO excited! She did ask if she could wear a dress...we compromised and she wore a pink shirt with pink socks (pulled up, of course!) and brought her own shiny pink size 3 ball. The video below is Cameryn and Jimmy "warming up" before the session started. She's got a little bit of work to do, but hey, it was her first try :-)

And another video of her dribbling with 'little touches'...well more like pushing the ball :-)

She really had a lot of fun. We've got some major work ahead of us in teaching her things like locking her ankle when she kicks the ball and NOT using her hands all the time! Well, unless she wants to be a goalie :-) She has had no training at all and suprisingly was very good at dribbling and it's apparant that she will be very fast too.

Here are a couple of still shots from the afternoon...

And then we finished off the afternoon with a nice swim in Owen's neighborhood pool...can't wait to do it all again next Sunday!

Rub a dub dub...

...two munchkins in a tub! My friend CB blogged about the success she had giving her two little girls a combo bath and I thought I'd give it a shot too -what a blast they had together! Reid tried his best to crawl out of his baby tub and laughed at Cameryn's silly antics the whole time. Cameryn just loved having her 'Baby Reid' in the bath with her too :-) Here are a few pics. Oh, side note...those are not bruises on Cameryn's eyes and face. She got into my makeup back and decided to doll herself up.

Pics from Cameryn's 3rd Birthday (Link to Snapfish)

Amanda really took some wonderful pics at Cameryn's 3rd birthday bash...thanks my friend - you're the best! So glad we finally were able to meet Miss Addison :-) http://www2.snapfish.com/fbshareredirect/p=58231244052237958/l=1787404009/g=37380514/redirectURL=share/otsi=SALBBL/AlbumID=943800009/a=37380514_43493495/usercomments=I_xqd%20like%20to%20share%20my%20Snapfish%20photos%20with%20you.%20Once%20you%20have%20checked%20out%20my%20photos%20you%20can%20order%20prints%20and%20upload%20your%20own%20photos%20to%20share./counttext=62%20photos/COBRAND_NAME=snapfish

Happy Birthday, my Princess!

Seems impossible...I can't believe Cameryn is 3 years old today! I swear it feels like these years have flown by. From the moment I found out I was pregnant with Cameryn, other 'veteran' parents have been telling me to enjoy my babies while they are small, because they grow up so fast. I'm realizing just how true this is...on one hand it makes me sad to realize I'll never get this time with her back. On the other hand, it is so exciting to see her grow into this amazing little person. She really is something else - I couldn't have asked for a more loving and beautiful daughter! Here are just a few pics of Cameryn through the years....

Like Father, Like Son

Just a quick pic to show (once again) the uncanny resemblance between my husband and son....so cute!

Reid is on the Move!!!

Watch out world, Reid is on the move! He crawled for the first time on Saturday during Cameryn's third birthday party. It was very exciting... In reaching this major milestone, we have also come to a bit of a dilema...what to do with the little rascal at work! This has been an utterly unproductive day so far. I put Reid down on the floor so that I can do a little work and next thing I know he's zipped halfway across the room and is heading straight for all the computer cords! AHHHHH! Dr. Kahn (Reid's ped.) has cleared him for daycare...I hate thinking of putting him in for many reasons. There is the selfish reason (I want him with ME!), the financial reason (ummm, we might as well be making another house payment!) and of course the health reason (germs, germs, germs). Dr. Kahn and I agree that his safety outweighs all of those reasons though! I mean, babies and computer cords DO NOT make for a good combo. Decisions, decisions...